James Kavanaugh (via hanthelion)
If you really want something, focus on it. Focus on it until you have it and it’s definite. Distractions should have no meaning to you. Everything you want is a test to see how much you really want it and how much you’re willing to give or lose to have it. Failing at your focus is failing at your desire. You never really wanted it in the first place if you never put in any effort. Don’t tell yourself you want something without ever trying to get it. You’re just lying to yourself and setting pre-planned to fail goals. Besides, if you at least try and are unable to get it, you aren’t entirely at fault with legitimate effort and it’s better to do something than nothing. You can’t learn from nothing.
We lose the people we love because they are meant to love someone else. We lose them because we are destined to find someone else. It is a simple fact that it is sometimes hard to accept because we are too stubborn to let go of something that doesn’t belong to us anymore.
March 24, Day 284.
Have you ever shared a conversation with someone without so much as opening your lips or writing a single letter on paper? It sounds absurd but that was what they often did. Sometimes, they spoke so much that it seemed that they had known each other more than just the time they spent in this life. That the intricate entwined connection that the two souls shared couldn’t just be formed in only the span of only a couple of years. However, an outsider sometimes wouldn’t even be able to notice that they knew each other. To unknowingly eyes, it could appear as though the two had never met before. It was during that time when they silent spoke to each other. No words were ever exchanged, and only fleeting eye contact and only the slightest changes in body language could be used to convey what they other was thinking but somehow, they knew. They knew what the other was always always thinking. And it was for that particular reason that the thought that she wished she had never met him never lasted long and why she never forgot about him. He infuriated her often and was the only person capable of leaving her tongue-tied. Sometimes, he cast such heart wrenching sorrow on her heart that any word that dripped from her mouth possessed its own piece of sorrow. She didn’t know true happiness before him either, though. Sometimes, he made her voice hoarse after she laughed with such jollity for so long and she always drifted to sleep with a smile and continued smiling while she slept as she dreamt of him. She wasn’t one to believe in fate but it felt like even if they hadn’t met that day, they would have still met at some other time in some other place. It was as though the universe conspired for the two to meet and for the two of them to share that magnitude of a connection.
But you never realized that until it was too late, the words you told her were just lies, you took her for granted and took advantage of her heart, now she’s hurt, she wonders how you could treat her the way you did when all she did was love you? She questions everything you say because all you did was lie to her, you abused her trust and now it’s gone… Your Apologies mean nothing to her now because you say them so often only to hurt her again later on. Now you have nothing, she decided to leave because you treated her wrong and she got tired of the pain, tired of being used, tired of being your option..
March 24, Day 284.
Have you ever shared a conversation with someone without so much as opening your lips or writing a single letter on paper? It sounds absurd but that was what they often did. Sometimes, they spoke so much that it seemed that they had known each other more than just the time they spent in this life. That the intricate entwined connection that the two souls shared couldn’t just be formed in only the span of only a couple of years. However, an outsider sometimes wouldn’t even be able to notice that they knew each other. To unknowingly eyes, it could appear as though the two had never met before. It was during that time when they silent spoke to each other. No words were ever exchanged, and only fleeting eye contact and only the slightest changes in body language could be used to convey what they other was thinking but somehow, they knew. They knew what the other was always always thinking. And it was for that particular reason that the thought that she wished she had never met him never lasted long and why she never forgot about him. He infuriated her often and was the only person capable of leaving her tongue-tied. Sometimes, he cast such heart wrenching sorrow on her heart that any word that dripped from her mouth possessed its own piece of sorrow. She didn’t know true happiness before him either, though. Sometimes, he made her voice hoarse after she laughed with such jollity for so long and she always drifted to sleep with a smile and continued smiling while she slept as she dreamt of him. She wasn’t one to believe in fate but it felt like even if they hadn’t met that day, they would have still met at some other time in some other place. It was as though the universe conspired for the two to meet and for the two of them to share that magnitude of a connection.
It is extremely scary to honestly confide in somebody. It is extremely difficult, too. Confiding means there are no walls, no taboos, no secrets, just you and your soul. Although scary and difficult, confiding is just extremely rewarding. Not in the sense that materialistic achievements will be yours after you share your soul but in the sense that your burdens feel less heavy. You simply feel better.
